Something is different.....

Venture a guess?

slob

I throw my things everywhere.  I thought this time it looked pretty with the sun.

Kathy Holiday Shoe

I love them in blue!!!!  Forever 21 for under $25.00

Meet April

Between law school and wedding planning I feel like who I am has been consumed.  Sometimes I wonder if April is still in there.  I don't expect to be the same little girl who needed her window open every night, just in case Peter Pan did show up.  I don't expect to be the same 11 year old who knew about the Santa secret, but still searched under the tree for something that hadn't been purchased by my parents.  Something to show magical.  I don't expect to be the 10th grader who would kick ass if she didn't like what you said and had a penchant for leopard print, boas and desperately wanted pink hair.  Finally I don't expect to be that 22 year in college who had amazing confidence and was fiercely independent.  Who knew who she was and knew how good she was. I don't expect to be exactly those people anymore but I wish there was a sense of them still there.

Sometimes I wonder if any of them have survived wedding planning and law school.  I worry wedding planning is destroying my personality.  Its all I think about and Im sure its all I talk about.  I can't imagine anyone I know that wants to hear about it ever again.  I dream about the wedding.  Its absurd.  I have found the shoes, but I need a veil, jewelry, shaper lingerie and an after party dress.  I have stress dreams about finding these things.  I want nice jewelry and a nice dress.  I am not going to lie - labels are mattering to me in this search.  I think this April would kick my ass if she heard this.  If high school April heard that I was having trouble deciding between a bracelet from sears and a bracelet from Macy's I think Macy's will be nicer even though they look the exact same she would call me a stupid poser.  She'd probably kick my ass for being this and then tell me to shut the fuck and stop whining about the wedding because no one gives  a shit.

I miss her.  I don't know where she went.  Something I think there is not a drop of her left in me.

What happened to my confidence?  I had once.  However It s seems as if its gone forever now.  There was an April before law school who was supremely confident in herself.  She knew she wasn't perfect and she knew that didn't matter.  Where did she go?  In law school I strive for perfection and I have no confidence that I can even do the most menial and nonsense task.  Call a client? Ill probably screw it up.  Take an easy test?  I definitely failed.

In less than 4 months this will all be over and hopefully I will be some semblance of myself.

5-4 months

Select and order the cake. Some bakers require a long lead time. Attend several tastings before committing to any baker.


Over the weekend the finacee and I went to Konditer Meister to select our cake.  We choose a cascading open scroll with buttercream roses in many colors.  It will be beautiful.  I am very excited.


We also:
1. bought our rings
2. selected the groomsman's tuxes
3. I found the wedding shoes 


Send your guest list to the host of your shower. Provided you, ahem, know about the shower.


This is all set.


Purchase wedding shoes and start dress fittings. Bring the shoes along to your first fitting so the tailor can choose the appropriate length for your gown.


I bought the shoes.  They are amazing. Thank you bakers.


Schedule hair and makeup artists. Make a few appointments with local experts to try them out. Snap a photo at each so you can compare results.


This one will be difficult.  I can go to all the local artists and hair salons I want... I am getting married in Hyannis.  I guess to do this one Ill have to make a trip - or use locals and bring the picture.


Choose your music. What should be playing when the wedding party is announced? During dinner? To kick off the dancing? Keep a running list of what you want—and do not want—played.


We are keeping a running list but we cant really do this one until the the RSVPs come back.  We aren't using a DJ we are using an Ipod.  Because of this there will be no music requests at the wedding.  We are leaving space on the back of the RSVPs so that guests can request songs.


I am really behind on all this. 

Select and order the cake.

Select and order the cake. Some bakers require a long lead time. Attend several tastings before committing to any baker.

I selected the cake, I selected the baker, I have not ordered it.

We are going with a cake similar to this but with more flowers and no ribbons:

We are opting for buttercream because its cheaper.  Although I don't mind fondant, I am not a huge fan.  our baker, Konditor Meister, uses rolled chocolate, not fondant.  I actually found that to be kind of gross. So not only do we save money there, but its tastes better to save money.

As for flavors, we are getting a 4 layer cake.  The top layer, the freeze layer, will be vanilla with white chocolate mouse.  We wanted vanilla with vanilla buttercream, but the baker won't do that.  They may think they are the best in MA (and apparently so does MA) but they do too much damn business because they won't make basic changes to their cakes (like no nuts, no mouse just frosting) to make their clients happy.  So we are using plain mouse and its pretty good.  The other layers will be a large vanilla, a medium chocolate and a small pumpkin.


Now I just need to call them and order it.

the shoes

Check on the wedding invitations.

Check on the wedding invitations. Ask the stationer for samples of the finished invitations and revise them to suit your needs.

Well this is easy enough - they don't have to be done but there should be some finished samples.  I am DIYing my invites and I have completed a number of them.  I think this weekend I will bang out a number more - maybe.

I bought a number of envelope tri-folds, and had my 5x7 printed by 123 print.  It fits nicely in the trifold.  I am also embossing the front and inside.  Its a lot of work and it is slow moving, but it is going.

Save the Date

4 months from today!

Start composing a day-of timeline

Start composing a day-of timeline. Draw up a schedule of the event and slot in each component (the cake-cutting, the first dance).

Yeah.... this is still part of the 6-7 months.  I am behind.  Not only did I not start this - I am running out of time.  CRAP.